sick and tired.

finally a sunday where there are no tests to mug for. no hassle to attempt to gussy myself up a lil to go out. a reading day! hahas. just read the papers and saw my tutor in the hot bod page! haha lookin good, pussy teacher :) gonna dig out all the new glossy mags. and books to read after i laze around a lil more. just need a pouf to rest my legs and chocolate frappe to perfect my insouciant sunday.

towned yesterday after doing lit proj. tings had to leave cos her grumpy driver complained they would be caught in a major jam along the highway if they left later so i went to meet mr sijia xin carol wai and qing! haha my first time at their regular ondo. funny people. hanging out with them always leaves me talkative. influenced from xin la! hahas saw her ah pek eye candy and was stupefied. but yea er cute brows. and when a certain someone came along she went balistic. stupid mr sijia is embarassed to be called mr sijia! i shall advertise her nick even more here ;) walked around and annoying incident at cine all the way to heeren la. stupid posers. go bother someone else please. and get a life. poor wai is stuck with the burden of doing the speech cos due to my constant whining, ms jacob changed the representative. but she obviously has greater potential la and i canNOT do speeches in public for nuts. hahas tings spag top has a thing for strands of fallen hair. it captures them so i was thinking maybe if she wears it for the entire day, we could see if it's true that everyone drops 70-90 strands of hair per day. okay me and my crap ideas. saw lotsa people in town yesterday. miss ya all. time seems be floating pass. floating cos its all in a blur. right. shall go squander my time somewhere else.

actch you think about it right, looks & everyth can be destroyed by character. yet we all seek to have good looks & the perfect figure -quoted from my best brand :) how true!

i think i've been too harsh.
but yea. bitch bitch bitch. just dont forget to leave out the RIGHT stuff and add in the WRONG stuff just to make yourself seem victimised. its not my problem that people she bitches to believe her rather than weigh the fact that there are always two sides to everything. which is why
- i feel so guilty for being mean now.
maybe she has a reason for being this way.
but yea what reason, everyone asks. but you know. there always is. thats what i read somewhere.

so this shall cease. till i cannot take it any longer again. anger management, anger management. except its not really anger la. irritation.

sigh. i wonder why things change so rapidly. people tell me bad comments about you, they really do. things ive never heard before.

yet another friendship problem.

forgotten. outline of the story. and i shall not bother to elaborate.

a blog is a place to express your emotions. no need to bottle everything up. you dont have to like what i blog about. i didnt say you have to. but then again. there isnt much impertinence in the content. and i dont hate anyone. including frog, yes. hope its not a tentative kinda thing. cos i feel so bad!! eeyer.

a1!! -grins wide- HUGE sigh of relief i tell you. almost died at the moment when ms jacob was scrambling around for my result slip. cos she seemed quite uncertain. till she grinned at me. and went wendy got 1! wendy got 1! haha. and my sister's results nt bad too. considering how she studied a few months before the prelims. hope she gets into the jc she desires to go to! suddenly i feel like everything's alright. okay i feel damn kingshaw-ish now.

did i mention i like sitting with wai? she lets me form alliterations with her nicknames and whatsoever people are calling her recently. the lai musta been the worst. and she lets me call her low lai ling lai ling le! and not only that. i scribble it on her notebook too. haha poor girl! and its also v convenient. no need to ask the teachers questions. just fire them at her. she patiently solves it all! smartass. i love you, best brand. and remember to keep my psst psst secret. haha damn chilidsh la us. okay. its just me :b

towned with tings today. oh my. helluva fun i tell you. laughed till we both needed to shit .. literally. okay overshared. i love you to bits, tings!! :))) borrowed 2 books! shall go read. now that i finally have the time. only 1 test next week! the sense of liberation :D

had fun measuring ourselves yesterday with tings wai and xiu. hell funny. measuring everything from boobs to teeth :D

i miss steph! like fucking much. the people here are crazy. okay not people..just one..frog. tell you when we meet. -hugs you tightly!!-

am only staying online for 5 mins!
to blog about frog.
yes.
rolls eyes.

she..or should i say it.
it thinks its the greatest
it thinks it rises above all
it never fails to try undermining people when its not praised.
it is such a bitchified ass i cannot believe i didnt see through it.
it needs everything to be done its way or it'd kick up as BIG fuss
it thinks its the prettiest .. thing on earth
it has b.o (laughs w tings)
it is everything i thought she wasnt.
it has let me down in many ways.
it thinks its damn funny.
it acts as though its best friends with everyone it just made friends with.
it has got everyone talking abt it now.

basically. it annoys all.
stop being so hypocritical and spread things that are not true.
just GET AWAY.
the sight of you irritates me. really.
ive never met anyone like that before.

oh my god.
huge load off my chest.
and there's more to it, believe me.
but i shall not
waste my time.

so there, it.
you'll know it's you. yes you.

ahem. i so wasnt arousin my dog!

yes you were. you were touchin its ahem!

no i wasnt. i was merely strokin it. not in da gross way. see!
theres no where else i can pet! as in.. DNT U KNW DOGS LYK U TO PET EM THERE!!! -.-"

-_- "

i forgot! happy birthday my sister and jia ying also :)
dada is like talking to her dog and arousing it.
no comments.
just had tuition.
sleepy and tired ._.

- you dont even know that things have changed. not like you even bother. just 2 years..but well. i did what i needed to.

happy birthday my darling lover dsf dada :)) and david and twin !

taking a break from studying as usual haha.
towned yesterday w dada mina angel tanny david+his friends. had dinner at lips and suddenly they disappeared for a fight (insert confused look here) and came back a while later, saying nothing happened. anyway. left and the stupid shop people thought i took their seventeen mag. hello. i just bought mine the day before at kino for 10bucks okayy. utter rubbish. anyhow we left cine (not before getting stuck outside while the others HAD to socialise like always..) and went heeren! then..taka..and wisma..and went home. bought the mango tee i wanted, tanny bought her quiksilver bag and the guys went to buy the 25cents ice cream out of the blue (insert another confused look here) and all started slurping happily while we sat there in perplexion. wasnt as bad as i expected it to be la. quite fun actually. was dead beat after that.

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tests to study for - elit. king of the castle..open book! :) chapt 1-8 ._. tuesday
math. date unknown. cumulative frequency and probability. tsktsk.
physics. friday. chapt 18-20.

vcds to buy - a walk to remember definitely tops the list
blue crush
a time for dancing

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nice britney song :)

Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

After all...
After all...

at dadas house now! :)
watched a walk to remember. so damn sweet, tht show. haha happy with my geog grades -grins happily.
bored bored bored.
going for the dinner soon..haha crook or straight!
where is the love

ok m typing nonsensical crap. shall join mina in the long wait..

sabrina is SO nice. as usual. i shall not comment on her kind words.

anyhow. was out with tings..had crystal jade :)) and we sat there for hours talking and bitching about pain in the asses. then we went kino..esprit..zara..i bought a future state cheeeap top! and a zara skirt :)) yayy. haha

i love tings because
1. she loves me too :D
2. she loves to bitch. and crap with me. she bears with my pmses and shite.
3. she loves crystal jade. just like me. (and practically everything else too) she takes up the same interest with me and we both get so excited. we like the same models..same brands..same food..same people..same this and that and yes this too..haha
4. she tells me straight to the face anything she feels that aint right with me.
5. she makes me laugh. a lot.
6. shes pretty. and she always will be in my mind :))
7. she has the nicest natural smell in her. and. her hair is the most natural rebonded type ive ever seen.
8. she helps me in my studies, whenever.
9. shes so loyal. she doesnt ever bitch about me :) and she'd never reveal anything she isnt supposed to
10. she doesnt really like ashton kutcher cos he broke up with brittany. and she tells me that. oh and by the way. she lets me be wendy (cos i AM wendy) though its really obvious shes even crazier about jeremy sumpter than i am. haha

11. i knw i can always count on her.

and the list goes on.
i just want to let you knw, tingting tht i love you SO much and i reallyreally hope things will always stay the same.
even after you leave :)

dilemma!! should i go for the dinner tomms and be extra?
should i go ahead and exhibit my spasticsm infront of people for the sake of a bloody speech?? argh. my stage fright is at the extreme stage :((

havent used icq in like..2 years. and i feel so suaku nw!! bet dada is sniggering at me man. haha. ive ALWAYS loved the uh-oh sound :)

was in a good mood.
but all i feel now is pure irritation.

sometimes its really not funny.

' off to read the mags i bought from kino.

yayy last test of the week has passed!! :D
if i just breathe
i know everything is alright :))

chem paper was okay. surprisingly. haha hope to pass!! failed the prev one.
and im SO happy i finally pass a math test. haha 15/20!! got a sticker some more -grins from ear to ear-
and my chi has been improving! got a1 :)) i guess studying really pays off.

and i guess being 'back on terms' w an ex-eye candy makes everything a tad better, somehow.
eeyer all the interesting movies in http://romanticmovies.about.com/cs/teenflicks/index_6.htm are R rated! what rubbish.
tomms towning with tingtings :)) havent been out w her for like..a month or smth! yayy we'e gonna shop!! then fri's dada's bday celebration thingy. a walk to rem here we come! :D

i feel so irritatingly happy.
i cannot stop smiling.

sigh. taking a break from chem. sorta done with metals. tho i highly doubt my brain is actually absorbing the contents ._.

happy belated valentines day everyone :)
supposed to town with dada but suddenly when i arrived at yoshinoya tanessa nana and michelle were there as well. so after crapping for a while we wenta heeren but reeraroo called so nana being her kaypoh self, wanted to go along..went somerset to pass her her vday pres and saw her beloved! aha was like telling nana exclusive exclusive upclose !! and we thought her beloved was wearing her berms ._. laughs. anyhow. met up with tanny and dada agn then we went centrepoint for my bra :)) and somehow i cant recall what happened after. aha but dada came up with this crazy romantic idea of eating at youth park with candles but of course. it didnt work. turned out the only candle available for sale costs 10bucks so we bought our food and went paragon roof top to have our dinner..played daidee and truth or dare and dada+i left. amused at how tanessa and i keep pointing out the same stuff. and how everything on her matches! shakes head.

february is such a birthday-month ! which means im gonna end up broke again.
oh! februrary :) cosmogirl :)) should i buy cleo for that free estee lauder mascara? i dont need it cos i have maybelline..but its estee lauder! hahas.

oh yes. forgot when but went to reeraroo's house with nana junyi jiang and obv ree was there la. hilarious day. all started with the talk of warts and breasts :D

update update.
chanmalis day on fri. was alright i guess. neos sucked like hell. intend to burn them so as never to see them ever again. bowled and my skills are like near to zilch..obv so cos i only bowled like twice in my entire life. bought nana and reeraroos pres and left.
my mum came back from the parents meeting soon after. thought she was gonna reprimand me or something. in the end she just happily bitched on and on ._.

i like coldplay :)) and RHCP..and my all american rejects. hoho. and of course. theres ashton -smiles smugly.

my mother is so mean..she asked me if nana's cookies were eatable ._. its v actually yummy okayy. nana! so everythings okay now i hopeee? -crosses fingers.

i realise i seem to be infatuated with everyone. i mean. not my friends la obviously. that would be horrible. as in..i dont think i make sense. do i? but yes. i shall try and quit this bad..habit? what a word to describe.

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everybody seems to be out to annoy me. stop it!! grrr. screams shrieks shrilly. aha alliteration.

my happy song is boys of summer. but it doesnt seem to work anymore.
Nobody on the road
Nobody on the beach
I feel it in the air
The summer's out of reach
Empty lake, empty streets
The sun goes down alone
I'm drivin' by your house
Though I know you're not at home

But I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got your hair combed back and your sunglasses on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

I never will forget those nights
I wonder if it was a dream
Remember how you made me crazy?
Remember how I made you scream
Now I don't understand what happened to our love
But babe, I'm gonna get you back
I'm gonna show you what I'm made of

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
I see you walkin' real slow and you're smilin' at everyone
I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

Out on the road today, I saw a DEADHEAD sticker on a Cadillac
A little voice Inside my head said, "Don't look back. You can never look back."
I thought I knew what love was
What did I know?
Those days are gone forever
I should just let them go but-

I can see you-
Your brown skin shinin' in the sun
You got that top pulled down and that radio on, baby
And I can tell you my love for you will still be strong
After the boys of summer have gone

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am not in the mood to talk now.
please go away.











back to acids bases and salts. fucking shite. i feel like puking at the thought of the bloody salts chapter. ugh.
i need a life :(

sigh.
what a sad year.
though i dont know her well. still. i can only imagine. what a hard time.

anyhow. 1 more chapter of chinese to go. and i shall study it all over again..knowing how my FANTASTIC memory probably has EVERYTHING in my brain -rolls eyes. grr.
math was horrid. almost drove me to tears till my sis came to my rescue. tys differentiation is serious shit for people like me who is scouting for chain rule/pdt rule qns. cos they only have like 3/4 qns. and it got me all confused. argh. did i mention i completely loathe math?? fpos.

towned yesterday w loverdsf and i got my stila stuff :) happy lover's day again. tho it wasnt v happy ._.
and im disappointed to say i dont think i can manage to be the first 300 people to get the mac playboy lipstick (obv) so i gotta get something else which is a headache.
and i wonder what'll my mums reaction be after she attends the meeting. what a fab timing for vday to take place.
traumatised with all these frigging stress that coulda been done away if i werent in the singapore education system. ok vday pres and depressing news has nth to do with the singapore education system. but everything else always does. sigh.

caught gothika! halle berry really looks diff with and w/o makeup. but her figure's damn good. and shes so gorgeous at the end of the show. anyhow. its a good freak show! and i think the person who came up with it has a really interesting mind. cos its quite complex and twisty at the end. and penelope cruz is quite a good actress! though her fake accent's a bit off sometimes. but its a shocking kinda show la. and that rachel person is like widens eyes. damn gross can. pity the actress.

anyway. bought some people's valentine's pres!! :D gonna get steph's da's and half of sq's tomms and im done. more or less. but i still have no idea what to buy for the others. rahh. broke broke broke. and it was SUCH a tough decision for nana's! grr.

omg this is HILARIOUS. cos da wrote happy one month in her blog for me (cos we're LOVERS) and people thought we were really together!! oh my. i just hope people dont start spreading rumours in school about us. cos the other time we went to the same cubicle in macs. and some sec1/2/3s were there waiting for us to get out and when we came out. they had on the most amusing horrified faces. but its not like we DID anything. we are FRIENDS!! period. -laughs. well. i go to the same cubicle as tings all the time too. since sec1. we change to together when we try on clothes. same case with steph+sq. and da too. i bathed with steph!! but we are ALL FRIENDS. we are NOT lesbians. no pl please. people used to think steph+tings were together for a period in the past. now this! haha. whats up man. please do not misunderstand. LOL.

but yes.
HAPPY ONE MONTH dada :) lover of mine
love you always. and please please please do not get overly upset and lapse into depression agn over - . as usual your useless lover doesnt knw what to say but please cheer up! dont worry there are like so many other suitors [?! weird word to use but yes] out there. everyone thinks youre hot..pretty..er everything and anything positive on the list! so fret not! look out your window and you see er a long queue of guys. -nods. aha. which is very unlike my case obviously but i shall not go further in detail because you know the story. yadayada. take care. and please take that tearing pic off your msn pic! deardear dada. aha. -hugs. lovelove.


-sing to tune of dilemma-
and i hate you
and i despise you
math i hate you
i dont need you.

no matter what i do
im always failing you.
even when i studied you
math you know im still failing you.

GROWLS i HATEHATEHATE perm+comb. just realised the short form's perm and comb! after perming your hair comb it. aha so lame. no wonder that frigging inventor of this mad inhumane discovery has curly hair.

listening to my favourite song now.
and it has calmed me down. aha :))

oh my. am so amused. my comp has music match and windows player. and suddnly both of them want to play my cd! dint even notice till i realised there seems to be an echo. heh.

^x gold dust and fairy glitter.
i do believe in fairies i do i do :))

im so sad! theres something wrong w my michelle branch album.

anyway. just finished typing the 2nd draft and process of the essay. reach home at 9+ after tuition,, yada yada. oh and i made a new friend. shes called tiffany from chung cheng :) aha. and im older than her!! suddenly im feeling old. everyone's junior.

i dont wanna grow up! aha that was peter pan. and he's so damn cute. everyone HAS to watch it. its a really sweet tale :) smiles dreamily. haha and stupid tings wanna snatch my bf from me! he kissed me in the movie you knw. and he held my hand and we danced under the moon, flying from the bursting happy thoughts, surrounded by the glittering fairy dust speckered across the earth.

mmhmm.

yes dream on.
but well.
have you ever thought that there might be really other worlds existing apart from this human race? maybe elsewhere theres a neverland for us! then we can think of happy thoughts and start flying to this happy place! and we can play till it rains. then we can seek shelter under some humongous leaves and make out :D aha okay out of point. but all these stress and competition. God didnt come up with it when he created the world. humans did. and they brought so much distress and unhappiness for themselves. sigh. back to happy world :)

- except i dont exactly have any super exhilerating thoughts to entertain at the moment.

you musnt say that you dont believe in fairies cos one'll die when the words leave your mouth! okay its just a fairytale. but ive always been fascinated by all these perfect happy ever after .. thingys. roll your eyes for all i care :)
am in a fairly good mood!!

i shall go sleep before my dark eye rings become charcoal black. tata world. sweet dreams!! am off for my own :))

towned yesterday though i wasnt exactly in the mood for it.
but da was already straightening her hair and singing karaoke songs to herself in her croaky-flu voice.
was quite fun though. aha. got pretty hyped up.
bought 2 cheeaap tops ; fourskin+stussy -wiggles eyebrows. and i came home with 3 pairs of earrings. just realised theyre all purple. haha
and da got herself a pink skirt. in THAT ah lian shop which i itched to run out of in case of mistaken identity. haha saw a pair of really cute purple heels. its more like those old klick klock shoes. but there was pretty purple felt all around the shoe with lighter shade of purple decorations laced all over. was just really cute. but obviously. i looked spastic in it. and i wont dare to wear it out if i bought it! and there was that super cute coin purse..and that bag..haha. wasnt aware that far east sells so many cute stuff! was a wisma+taka girl. whatever that means.
oh! and we took neos :) the black+white one was eccentric. we shall take it again haha.

we saw jackie chan! and i bet his arms ached from all that excess waving. but how could he stop when everyone was so enthusiastically screaming and waving? madness but qt funny. oh yes. and we saw this VERY HIGHLY amusing transsexual who decided to have her own lil parade for the cine crowd. damn funny. and he was freaky! figure was fab but his face was HORRID. defined ageing lines. and his hair sucked. it was like dry mat. and he still happily PRETENDED to be shy and covered the bottoms of his MICROMINI skirt constantly with that grotesque look on his face -pukes. but well. he was entertaining. and when i got on the train there was this woman or should i say old woman acting young and hyper. she looks like a drunk slut. laughing..more like cackling like a hyena and boy, is her voicebox huge. everyone in the train was staring at her thru'out the journey. and she was obviously pleased with herself, putting up a show of smooching her boyfriend jumping around and playing some sorta fist game. and of course, constantly bumping into people with her ugly black handbag but obviously not batting an eyelid to care. rolls eyes! anyhow. my sister saw xiao zhu and she reports that he's helluva lanky but cute. so. haha. and he looks exactly like the way he does on the heeren screen. and my eye candy! shaved his head. for army, i guess. he looks qt weird. but still cute. aha. oh yes!! and there was this superbly spastic guy with his egoism brimming a mile wide coming forward to da+i and started ranting : do you know who am i? im a very famous guy and blah blah. we stared at him. then we found out he plucks eyebrows. well sissy, get lost. who ARE you?

american idol3 was hilarious!! the things people do to earn some fame. i wonder how they can keep a straight face and do the things they do themselves. and ryan seacrest is not only cute. but very nice too. hmm -looks at da. HAHA okayokay. hands off.

people people. all sorts of people.

i wanna watch peter pan+the company+love me if you dare ! but nobody's in the movie mood.

just realised its feb1st! which implies nothing but its a new month! which..implies nothing, but. okay ignore me.

my mum asked me to read this article written by a china girl from our school that was published in the chinese pprs ._.

stupid tings aint replying me. growls at her angrily.